First Blog.....

Well, this is my first foray into the blogging world.  I love to write, but I prefer to write longhand rather than type.  I am fully relying on God for this because I feel he has called me to do this.  I have no idea what I am doing really, just putting it all out there.  Here goes.....


My husband suffers from panic attacks.  I was like a lot of you, I did not really understand at all what he was talking about.  You see, he was well when we met.  Then a few months after we met he started retreating.  I guess here is the point I tell you he also suffers from agoraphobia.  So, I would get angry because he could not take me where I wanted to go or he was not able to go to work.  All the while he was not telling me how serious it was. 

I ended up leaving, because I selfishly believed that I was right and that God should listen to me and do what I wanted when it came to my marriage.  I did not understand what was happening.  I had been hurt before in my life so instead of trying to work our problems out, I erected walls around my heart and mind.  When I prayed I prayed for God to change him, fix him, help him.  All the while wanting God to save my marriage.  I ended up having an aneurysm.  When I awoke, I knew that I wanted to be with my husband and no one else.  I also knew that the key to our marriage wasn't with God fixing him, it was with God working on me.  So the purpose of this blog is to give you suggestions, for me to vent when it gets hard and for you to ask questions.  And always, to give God the glory.  Until next time

Kelli